“I'm not the prettiest you've ever seen
But I have my
moments, I have my moments
Not the flawless one,
I've never been
But I have my
moments, I have my moments
I can get a little drunk;
I get into all the don'ts
But on good days I am
charming as fuck”
So this song has been stuck in my
head for a few weeks now. I think I am driving my girlfriend crazy with it. (To
be honest it’s my ringtone for her too LOL). It’s called Moments by Tove Lo.
Actually go download her whole album. It’s always on repeat for me. But back to
the whole point of this post… I am not perfect. I try to be, it’s something
that is imbedded in me to strive for perfection and these last few months have
seriously been HARD!
You see I am on my journey to get
healthier and I am a big under eater. It got so bad that my body has gone into “
Starvation” mode which means:
“A state in which the body is
responding to prolonged periods of low energy intake levels. During short
periods of energy abstinence, the human body will burn primarily free fatty
acids from body fat stores. After prolonged periods of starvation the body has
depleted its body fat and begins to burn lean tissue and muscle as a fuel
source”
My nutritionist defined it as, I was
not eating enough and my body decided to store everything I ate since it
thought I was “dying” and wanted to keep me alive. Now mind you this does not
happen overnight. I have always eaten 1-2 big meals almost my whole life. I am
used to it, and back before I had heart surgery it was actually no problem. I
was a 5’5 at a healthy weight of between 140-150 pounds (but at 17 I thought I
was “fat”). They found a congenital heart condition that went untreated for 17
whole freaking years. They told me I had Mitral Valve Prolapse with severe
Regurgitation. The Mitral valve prolapse means my heart valve wasn’t
functioning right and wasn’t “flapping” correctly. The severe regurgitation
meant (well for me) that 75% of the blood my heart was pumping was flowing the
wrong way because of my flappy valve. I had absolutely no symptoms (other than
the extremely loud murmur multiple doctors where in awe of and wanted to hear,
go figure). Long story short the surgeon said to me “we can repair your valve.
You will definitely die if you do not get this Surgery, you may die during surgery since we are
stopping your heart for a long period of time, and you may also need another surgery in the future”. What choice did I have at
17? I said go for it, and they did. Needless to say I am still here. But the
thing is after that surgery my active lifestyle became nonexistent. I was put
on bedrest for a few months. I got my license and bought my first car (a 1992
Honda.. I was born in 1991) so why walk anywhere anymore? Why do anything even
remotely active? I never changed my eating habits so the weight just began to
pile on. My body was storing the fat. I never understood WTF was happening
because I really wasn’t eating fifty meals, just my 1-2 large ones, all is good
in the world so why am I 50 pounds heavier? Fast forward to this year where I
am nearly 100 pounds heavier with arthritis in many different places AND a
slightly leaky valve, do I need surgery again? No my cardiologist says… but I
should drop the weight, and soon.
So I finally decided to do
something about it and I joined the Beachbody team!! Yay me!! I mean I feel
like I have a whole new family that is so supportive of me every step of the
way. The only problem is… I still haven’t been able to nail my food intake!!!
This has been a struggle for the past 2 months now. Don’t get me wrong I am
losing inches due to my daily exercises, but I am not doing the whole thing
100% because I can’t find the time to eat. I am so used to my 1-2 meals that I
feel lost eating any more. And I don’t seem to find the time in the day. Like
where the fuck is the time and how the fuck do I get in 5-6 meals? Are they
crazy?!
So this is my post to say no I am
NOT perfect. I am still learning like many of my clients, and it is definitely a
work in progress. I do not try to pretend that I am perfect because I believe
that showing my flaws makes me more relatable and a better fitness motivator in
the long run. So with that said would you like to join me on my journey to a
healthier self? I promise I will be honest. I have been for this long. Many of
my clients have amazing success stories, one lost 10 pounds and nearly 18
inches in a total of 24 days. Now that to me is definitely success. If you do
want to join the imperfect coach who will push you hard to get through your
journey than message me at jani.vargasbb@gmail.com
or click on the FB link and follow me. We can figure what is best for you. Hey
maybe you can also help me get this eating thing down….
Crap I think it’s time for a
snack!!
